I decided to buy poster board and advertise that my performing in the park was part of my fearless acts challenge. And that was a good idea. I quickly learned that singing alone in a crowded park doesn't garner much attention. I also happened to be next to the booth promoting, National Orgasm Day so, I had some stiff competition. But, my sign definitely sparked interest. People would walk by, read and then take pictures or give me a thumbs-up.
Truth: I wasn't really into street performing. I felt distracted and self-conscious like nobody was paying attention to me. I started thinking of other ways to get attention: maybe I could get people to do a massive conga line or lure a crowd to run into the fountain while singing the "Friends" theme-song. I was just looking for anything more exciting than me, singing with my guitar.
About fifteen minutes in, a young, vibrant NYU student approached me. "I'm doing an article on street performers and would love to talk to you about your challenge. Would you like to grab a coffee?" Perfect, I thought. I was ready to be done.
Her name is Yuki and she's here for the summer taking a music journalism class. She loves New York, loves photography and loves hearing people's stories. My kinda gal. She asked me about everything; my journey; my challenge; why I wanted to be a singer. And when I told her I taught myself how to play guitar at age twenty-five, her eyes lit up. She's only twenty!
"Thank you so much for sitting with me," she said. "I think what you're doing is really special."
Maybe that's what I needed to hear all along.
We parted ways and I continued to sit at the park for awhile. I started to think how I desperately wanted to change the moment, and do something different to make it more fun. But I would have missed out on meeting Yuki.
And sometimes when we want something different to occur than what is actually happening, we miss out on life's greatest gifts.
These blog posts are part of my #40daysoffearlessacts Challenge. When I turned Forty on June 6th of this year, I decided to STEP-UP my life and created a "40 Days of Fearless Acts" challenge. Follow along as I step out of my comfort zone, do things that scare me, that I've never done before and/or are just plain silly and make me laugh!
you are worthy. you are supported. you matter.